♡♡♡ C u p i d

Goodbye

2011-11-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

Goodbye my dearest blog which I've owned for years, you've been my best listener throughout these years when no one is willing to borrow me an ear.

I will miss you.
Goodbye for good.

Take care ☺

Thinspiration

2011-10-13T19:18:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the long hiatus, been busy with uni since start, and am just not bothered enough to update this boring space of mine. Been thinking of changing to tumblr, made an account for myself there already but tumblr is so complicated, guess I'll just leave it to reblogging and reblogging away :>

So, some thinspiration for you?

All sourced from tumblr!

I want her eye and her lip colour. Stunningly. Beautiful.

And heres, Kiko Mizuhara. Been my favorite japanese fashion model since my Vivi days along with another model named Jun? Isn't she gorgeous? Anyway I should really be more careful of myself just in case in a moment of sane I'll head over to the saloon and chop off my hair to have hers, ♡.♡

Some pictures of myself just in case you forgot my face;

Korea end of this year,

I can't wait ♡

Good day!

L O V E R B O I

2011-09-24T00:12:00.000+08:00

Been neglecting this blog for way too long. I just came back from KLIA, sent off my dearest loverboi back to Korea. I must be crazy to be saying this but, I miss him already. Will be spending 5 days without him, dreading how I won't be having my breakfast-lunch-dinner-partner-lover-bestfriend-&everything with me for these 5 days. T_T

Anyway on the other hand, life's been fine. HELP is fine too, but I abso-fucking-lutely hate the carpark because I have to go there early even though my class is at 10 because its so hard to find parking! Plus parking at my own building (WISMA HELP) costed me RM15 for 5 hours. Thats daylight robbery, imagine parking there everyday, 100% broke! Apart from that, I think everything is a-okay, although I'll have to admit Taylors is so much better. Owellz

I think apart from these, I don't have anything interesting happening in my life right now.
OK BYEBYE

Instagram 020911

2011-09-02T00:58:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW ♡♡

I CAN'T WAIT.

I think they call this MIA

2011-08-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

Maybe I should just close down this blog. Because I don't know how to blog anymore.

Or maybe when I feel like it, I'll be back, but for now, not just yet.

To know how I'm doing (boring), follow me on twitter.com/evelynchew :)

Have a good day.

wanderlust

2011-08-02T23:14:00.000+08:00

Word.

I can't blog.

Happy August.

And love is "evol"

2011-07-31T12:45:00.000+08:00

[Verse 1:]

We touch I feel a rush

We clutch it isn't much

But it's enough to make me wonder whats in store for us

It's lust, it's torturous

You must be a sorceress 'cause you just

Did the impossible

Gained my trust don't play games it'll be dangerous

If you fuck me over

'Cause if I get burnt imma show you what it's like to hurt

'Cause I been treated like dirt before you

And love is "evol"

Spell it backwards I'll show you

Nobody knows me I'm cold

Walk down this road all alone

It's no one's fault but my own

It's the path I've chosen to go

Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever so

Don't ask me why I have no love for these motherfucking hoes

Bloodsucking succubus, what the fuck is up with this?

I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this

It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be

Like trying to start over

I got a hole in my heart, I'm some kind of emotional rollercoaster

Something I won't go on 'til you toy with my emotion, so it's over

It's like an explosion every time I hold you, I wasn't joking when I told you

you take my breath away

You're a supernova... and I'm a

[Chorus:]

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon

And I'm aiming right at you

Right at you

250 thousand miles on a clear night in June

And I'm aiming right at you

Right at you

[Verse 2:]

I do whatever it takes

When I'm with you I get the shakes

My body aches when I ain't

With you I have zero strength

There's no limit on how far I would go

No boundaries, no lengths

Why do we say that until we get that person that we thinks

Gonna be that one and then once we get 'em it's never the same?

You want them when they don't want you

Soon as they do feelings change

It's not a contest and I ain't on no conquest for no mate

I wasn't looking but I stumbled onto you must've been fate

But so much is at stake what the fuck does it take

Let's cut to the chase

But a door shuts in your face

Promise me if I cave in and break and leave myself open

That I won't be making a mistake

[Chorus]

[Verse 3:]

So after a year and 6 months it's no longer me that you want

But I love you so much it hurts

Never mistreated you once

I poured my heart out to you

Let down my guard swear to god

I'll blow my brains in your lap

Lay here and die in your arms

Drop to my knees and I'm pleading

I'm trying to stop you from leaving

You won't even listen so fuck it

I'm trying to stop you from breathing

I put both hands on your throat

I sit on top of you squeezing

'Til I snap you neck like a Popsicle stick

Ain't no possible reason I could think of to let you walk up out this house

And let you live

Tears stream down both of my cheeks

Then I let you just go and just give

And before I put that gun to my temple

I told you this

And I would've done anything for you

To show you how much I adored you

But it's over now

It's too late to save our love

Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star 'cause imma

[Chorus:]

I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon

And I'm aiming right at you

Right at you

250 thousand miles on a clear night in June

And I'm so lost without you

Without you

I wish I have a heart made of steel

2011-07-27T02:26:00.001+08:00

If you follow my twitter, is my friend on facebook and instagram too, you'd probably seen all these pictures before but heck I'm still going to post them because my blog lacks of my face :p

Do you like me with specs?

And thats it, if you want to know what apps I'm using, hehe.

I'm using iDarkroom, Diptic, Princess Camera, Instagram!

More to come!

Good day ♡

Jan Kaczmarek - Goodbye

2011-07-13T13:42:00.000+08:00

"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can’t ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it’s already happened."

Tutti Frutti

2011-07-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

0950pm- Went all the way to Tutti Frutti, Kebun Teh! Only took me 10 minutes to come back with yummy yogurt ;) I am very certain that I am fucking addicted.

Used to always get Original until yesterday Dominic tried the yam one and I'm now in love with it too. Yummmmeeeeh, gotta run, needa eat my tutti frutti! ♡

2011-07-06T14:53:00.001+08:00

“I am my heart’s undertaker. Daily I go and retrieve its tattered remains, place them delicately into its little coffin, and bury it in the depths of my memory, only to have to do it all again tomorrow.”

blue eyes

2011-07-06T14:27:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for so long...

Been major busy these few days, actually doing nothing much just chilling with my family, going Tutti Frutti almost everyday (which I have no idea why), hanging out with some favourite people, reading ebooks from my iPad, and just.. whatsapp-ing. But god knows why, I haven't had the time to really sit down with my laptop to blog, hahaha I guess this is life?

Anyway so, how've you guys been doing? Just yesterday, I bathed my baby ddeokbokki because he was SOOO dirty after playing around in my garden I just can't stand the sight of it. Guess this is the disadvantage of having a white pup, he gets dirty too easily and its annoying cause I have this urge to bathe him every single day. And right now, what makes it worst is that ... he's infested with fleas. I have no idea how, and where. So now, I can't play with him anymore, put some medicine already gotta those fleas die first before playing with him again :(
But here he is, looking clean after bathing :')

On the side note, like I said, I've been reading ebooks from my iPad hence, spending a lot of time with my iPad and neglecting my laptop, but damn I think with iPad, I no longer need my laptop hahaha :D

Photo taken on the 4th of July at 5.05pm

K, time to go back tumblr-ing. Sorry for the pointless update! :D
Good day people!

Ddeokbokki 떡볶이

2011-06-29T13:33:00.002+08:00

Meet Ddeokbokki!

Thanks to the Lee Brothers for getting me this adorable pup, won't have ddeokbokki without them. Anyway, in case you don't know, ddeokbokki is the name of the korean rice cake (in Korean : 떡볶이) Why did I name him that? Hmmm, I have no idea hahaha just find that it'll be super adorable to name my dog ddeokbokki, no? And he just spent so much of my money I'm currently very very very broke. T_T

One month of holiday started yesterday, but somehow I don't feel any sense of relief because I have so many things to be done and yet to be done, and worries worries worries constantly filling up my mind. But a good way to start the holiday must be having ddeokbokki by me, he's my happy pill \(^o^)/

On the side note, I just joined the gym!

Time to lose some weight and start on my business soon! ;)

Have a good day people, since I'm really bored nowadays, come, spam me some questions at my formspring! :)

http://www.formspring.me/evelynchew

Good day!

mad

2011-06-25T10:42:00.000+08:00

Christina Perri - Arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart

But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will let you me change my mind and turn around

I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved

I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth

And I've never opened up

I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me

And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls

I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling

I'll never let a love get so close

You put your arms around me and I'm home

I'm still breathing,

I'm still alive.

Lets just hope I have the strength for all these.

Without tears without heartbreaks, us.

Weak

2011-06-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

...So what if the world were to crumble down on me.

So what if I will be left with nobody.

I will not be weak anymore.

I always knew it, we had a communication problem. We don't talk about things properly. You assume that I know what you're thinking, I assume that you know what I'm thinking, but the truth is, none of us know what each other is thinking. We had to/we must talk about it, but in turn we, just kept quiet about it. How long will I be able to take it before I break down again? Before all this will come to an end?

Intoxicated

2011-06-19T13:14:00.000+08:00

...been on this empty space for almost 5 minutes now, typing and erasing, typing and erasing. Because I don't have the idea how to pen down my thoughts in this tiny space, my complications that sometimes drive myself crazy... this self-pity thing sometimes eats me out completely.

People need friends. And for someone who's staying outside, without their parents to rely on, all the more they needs to rely on their friends. Pity is that, I don't have many. Or rather, people who were there for me, were only there for me for a short period of time then poof, off they disappear. Misunderstandings, or just distance, drifted apart.

To be honest, I am a very shy girl. I cannot/I don't know how to make new friends. If you were throw me into a new land, I'll most probably end up alone. But this time, I'm pretty sure I tried.. I tried getting to know people, tried trying to get some conversations that maybe would lead to more, but nobody is letting me in. Hence, here I am again, ending up alone.

I'm always alone, or maybe I should say, I only have one person. Which is why I always tend to be dependent on that person, as I always don't have any other to depend on. "Be independent" I tell myself most of the time, but do you not get tired of eating alone everyday, going here and there alone everyday? Its like you're in a dark room, crying out for help, hoping there's someone there but what you heard is only the echoes of your own voice.

I really do not want to sound like I'm some pathetic bitch or anything, but really, this has been bugging me for the past 4 months since I started my degree course.

How pathetic.

Flashback.

2011-06-15T13:19:00.000+08:00

I want you always to remember me. Will you remember that I existed, and that I stood next to you here like this?

CAL prom

2011-06-11T12:08:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since there's an exciting event happening in my life! I crashed Cambridge A-Level's prom yesterday night, the event was very nice, nicer than our SAM's one in fact, and also held in a beautiful hotel - J.W. Marriott Hotel ☺

Was in a rush the whole day, until Min Kyu was soooooo tensed up and stressed! Plus we didn't get enough sleep the previous day, which made things SO much worse, but glad we been through it!

Anyway, here's a few picture. I just realized I didn't take any full body shot of myself. Only one with Min Kyu! AH well I guess its fine.

By a professional photographer, original picture is in better quality than this :(

Our table was at the LAAAAAST row, because they submitted very late, its where the staffs walked in and out so our pictures have a lot of waiters and waitresses ha.

love my hair that night, but my make up looks a bit too light. Owellz

all the girls in both tables :)

with Patricia! She came over from her table to take picture with me :) But my boyfriend is a very bad photographer....

Heehee! After party was a-okay, bad things happen but things got better. (i think?)
I had a good time.

Good day all! Need to go back to hibernating mode, need to catch up on my sleep!

Love will tear us apart.

2011-06-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

...Maybe more, I'm afraid.

Be brave.

2011-06-07T15:31:00.007+08:00

I was brave, still am brave.

Please don't let me regret my decision, please don't make me walk away.

P.S:

Happy birthday.

Coldplay ♡

2011-06-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

Because I'm bored.

2011-06-04T02:23:00.000+08:00

Ok goodnight ♡

:3

2011-06-02T14:13:00.002+08:00

ANTICIPATING

Frailty

2011-06-01T18:45:00.002+08:00

Fragile ,
~~please handle with care.~~
A broken relationship is like a thorn in the heart, it just keeps hurting and hurting until you pull it out, and even if after you did, the wound will need time to heal, until the wound become a scar, and when scars are formed, it will always be there, as long as you live, forever serving as a reminder, as for how did something so beautiful fell apart in a blink of an eye, in the passing of time.

June wish:-

I just want to be happy.

Destiny

2011-05-30T22:23:00.003+08:00

So an old saying goes by, to always put yourself in others' shoes.

I guess today I finally know what it means, to be putting myself in someone else's shoes. It all happen when I said that I am homesick. And then he replied "What about me?" ...To be away from home for so long and so far away, it must have took a lot of courage and strength. Especially when the time he came over here to study was when he was 15 years old. It must have been hard for a small boy, to be leaving home, to leave his parents, to learn how to be independent, to be falling to the ground and start from scratch all over again, to make new friends, to learn a new language, a new culture, getting used to the food over here. So who am I to compare, what can I say more, how can I complain to be homesick when he didn't even complain.

This really proves how dependent I am to my family, but is this how I should be punished? To fall sick for the 4th time since the beginning of the year? Sometimes, I think being together with a guy like him, really makes me learn so much about life, and see it from a bigger perspective. Maybe this was the reason, this will be a lesson to be learnt.

hold my heart

2011-05-26T22:52:00.002+08:00

B: She was beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me.

Attachments.
I guess, when you get attached to someone; getting so used to their presence, their absence always lingers. When your attachment becomes a kind of dependency, that's when things starts to go wrong. Not that you want it to, but because you can no longer control yourself, because instead of want, now you need. You need their presence, their attention... them. But little did you know, how much time have you not given yourself for a breather, because of that constant crave for someone else's attention, you forgot about the attention you should be giving to yourself instead. Instead of constantly falling into disappointments, why can't someone just demand less of someone else's attention and demand for their own attention, for themselves instead? What can I say is only, attachments were never easy to let go. And most of the time, getting attached, mentally attached to another half... only hurt yourself.

believe in me

2011-05-25T02:56:00.000+08:00

02:36am

Currently not sleeping because of this evil game in my laptop, and I can foresee more sleepless nights coming from this. But ah well, too addictive, especially when its on big screen ha ha ha :D

Let's backtrack, on the 23rd of May, the Piccadillians reunite again (except for the absence of Qing & Xinyi, plus two intruders - Sanam and Min Kyu heehee)

I had one of the best nights, the company, the food, the conversation - purrrfect!

here's kim looking happy with her food (slrrps)

refillable nachos (drools...)

ok time to really sleep. good night ♡

Online store, yay or nay?

2011-05-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm currently rushing my assignment which is due at 2pm tomorrow but currently not much progress hence I'm dying in those stress..... And I have presentation at 9pm tomorrow which I'm soooo unprepared. OMG kill me now already. Everything coming altogether, tuesday I have another test. :/ one step at a time k Evelyn Chew!

On the happier note !!! , I am planning to open an online store with my boyfie! Everything will be taken from Korea (no lies :D) I just need to know will I be getting customers, and will there be people interested in my Korean apparels heehee! So, please give me your feedbacks on my formspring! Gladly appreciated ;)

back2assignments, fml.
Have a great day ☺

to Esther.

2011-05-20T10:32:00.000+08:00

to Esther Eng Yee Thong, my dearest baby girl.

Happy 19th birthday love ♡♡♡

Thank you, for those good and the bad times we've been through,

couldn't have done it without you.

Thank you, for being my pillar of support when I have none, for teaching me so many things, from advices to advices.

Thank you, just for being my friend. ☺

love always, Evelyn.

for you I'd do it all over again.

2011-05-19T22:21:00.002+08:00

And you are the wolf, and I am the moon

And in the endless sky we are but one we are alive

In my dreams wolf and I...

♡

Let go, let yourself free. And if he stays or comes back, it’s clearly meant to be.

If you were to ask me now, what animal would I choose to be, I would choose to be a bird. Because of their freedom and also their ability to fly without worries. But I guess, as for right now, if I were to be a bird, I will be a bird with an injured wings. Still waiting for the day my pair of wings to heal, and then pursue my freedom again.

Or, if you were to ask me, where and when on earth would I rather be now, I would answer you when I was a baby, in my mother's arm. Because there and then, I was innocent, perfect, and pure. And most importantly, I was unaware of how ugly this society is.

Back2reality,

things have been pretty intense I can say. Went back to JB last saturday, as you all know I don't have my car. So, I tumpang Mk's car to Melaka then he fetched me to the bus station and I took a bus back to JB. God, I swear that was the longest journey home ever. My whole body was literally aching like mad when I'm home. Despite feeling really tired, I got to know that my grandmother, of age 82 years old, if I'm not mistaken, is going to take a bus up to Melaka HERSELF, I decided to be hero and fetched her up, so it became a mini road trip. Heh ☺ I feel like a good granddaughter. Although things may seem to be going well, things aren't going well with my body ☹ I'm having breakouts! After. so. long...

And today, went over to KLCC with baby FoFi, got lost on our way back because SMART tunnel was close (yes that's the only way I know to get home), I think I explored the whole KL! Went from KL -> Sg Besi -> Shah Alam -> Puchong -> Bandar Sunway. Haha ok... thinking of it now, maybe I didn't. The journey back home was hell, because its raining and traffic is slow EVERYWHERE. And I literally cursed every 5 seconds in the car. Glad I'm home safe anyways.

Have a great day. ☺

'cause my heart just can't take it

2011-05-17T17:57:00.003+08:00

Love's to Blame - Joel & Luke

i'm afraid to fall again, because there's no assurance to how would things go. although I know, its just too early to say, and what kind of assurance is needed other than love, but love can bring people together, love can also tear people apart. that's the scariest part. i've been through, those times i hurt myself trying to put everything back together, i don't want to be going through them again. i'm scared, i'm really scared. love's to blame, darling, love's to blame...

I was enchanted to meet you

2011-05-17T00:31:00.004+08:00

You want to know what makes me love you more than I loved him? It’s because when he got me, I was perfectly unused. I was fearless, and a hopeless romantic. When you got me I was bruised and battered. I was afraid of the world and cynical about love. And yet, you didn’t leave.

I really can't pen down how much I appreciate you exactly, those times where you never gave up on me, yet was patient towards me all the way. I really have no idea how do I thank you in the most sincere way. To be honest, life has been going better ever since you appeared in my life, sweet memorable memories of ours are increasing drastically nowadays, being the reason for spending almost 24 hours with you almost everyday : > Anyway, you have no idea how much you meant in my life ♡

I don't know but since when have you,
stolen my heart?

*

Anyway, on Sunday, me, my sister, brother and my cousin went to Melaka. Its actually to drop my grandmother off at my relatives' so we decided to head on to Melaka town and meet up my boyfriend & his brother too :) We actually didn't take much pictures. Ha :>

And here's the video of that day's road trip. :>

Ok lah, I'm heading back to Subang Jaya today again, pray that there's no jam and nothing would happen to me. Would be driving my sister's car up. Ok bai.

Have a good day.

Everything looks perfect from far away,

2011-05-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

"Here comes the feeling I thought I've long forgotten."

After all these that we've been through, after all those that I've put you through. I'm just glad that you're happy. And that we're doing good going our separate ways. I miss you, not the you who you are now, nor you a person, but your companion to me once a long time ago, your thoughts and your opinions which I've always respected, the friend I've always looked for. I really want you to be happy. And on the bottom note, I really do care for you. Although I showed that I don't.

On the other hand, I'm not down, nor emotional because of what I just wrote, I'm just, emotionless. Y'know, the feeling of feeling nothing? Probably because I'm numb? Or just. I don't know - nothing, really. (Sorry, I do really want to make sense here.)

But put that aside, all the very best to all A-Levels people for the start of their AS/A2 examination tomorrow, especially to my Jagiya - Min Kyu ☺

Have a good day everybody.
Love, Evelyn.

Reflection

2011-05-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me?

What is know is, I'm no longer the girl I used to be.
Fitting in, finding my own place, it tiring me.

Your daddy must have been a drug dealer, 'cause you dope.

2011-05-05T08:08:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiiii, today me and mk went on a 1 day trip to Seremban just to get some stuffs done (which we couldn't get it done after all too), on the way, I took some videos so I'mma post it here for you guys to see hehehe ;) Support kkk!! I'm gonna make it a habit to take videos frequently so its easier for keepsakes in the future. Anyway enjoy :> the last part is really funny :D & please please please, don't mind my sampat-ness! Its my first time! Give some face k!

1daytrip2Seremban from EvelynC on Vimeo.

*A moment of rant; Seriously, some kinda shitty system we're having in Malaysia, I tak boleh tahan serious. On the way back from Seremban, I nearly burst in the car. Om...g. The efficiency of policemen in Malaysia really negative 0 la. Sigh sigh sigh *big sigh* shall not talk about it anymore, the main point is, I don't think I'll be getting my car so soon. *cries*

Whatever it is, have a good day everyone!

Baby Polo :(

2011-05-03T11:15:00.001+08:00

I seriously think my car is cursed with an owner like me, :(

Got into an accident last night on the highway on the way back to subang.

Lucky I'm not injured.

Accident at 8pm, only get to reach home at 3am. Chun right, stupid malaysian police super inefficient, I waited at the police station for at least 3 hours.

And I am super thankful that Min Kyu was with me throughout, imagine this happens, and I was all alone. What am I going to do! Min Kyu's car not as serious as mine, gonna go over to the workshop together later.

Sigh, SUEY TO THE MAX.

Hope you guys have a good day, not a day as shitty as mine!

Prada is sex.

2011-05-01T16:07:00.000+08:00

Mom just came back from Europe and she got me what I am currently in love with. AHHHHH mad love ♡

I want to go Korea!

K, have a good day.

I need to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve.

2011-04-26T18:10:00.000+08:00

Unhearted.

2011-04-25T14:52:00.000+08:00

How things changed. How I've changed.

I used to love attention, I used to love the attention I could get from people whenever I walk into a crowded room.

Right now, I just want to hide. Run and hide, I wish no one would notice me in a crowded room.

How things changed.

What shall I do without you?

2011-04-25T14:17:00.001+08:00

These were from yesterday's unproductive study session over at my old ss15 campus that changed so much after I left. I miss going to that campus really, I think its better than lakeside now because its like everyone is just so familiar to you. I think what I miss more would be my friends ; Esther, Jeralyn and all of them :(

Anyway, so today I'm going to make a vow to not drive to SS15 ever again. Its like every single time I drive there, nothing good happens. I. Am. Fucking. Serious.
So if you guys follow my twitter, you should know my car got towed away. Hahaha. I wanted to just park for at most 2 hours I swear, I didn't expect myself to be THAT unlucky. And I could still clearly remember that time when I double parked, and I am serious now again, I only double parked for 5 minutes! I got summoned, with a tag on my right sidemirror. Yah, talk about unlucky huh.
But serious, I really do not, I repeat, do not, know what am I going to do without this sweetie pie named Lee Min Kyu, I'm serious, if it weren't for him who fetched me all the way to "claim" back my car (mind you, I paid RM145 to "claim" back), and if it weren't for him for everything, I would literally be crying, not knowing what to do. Right now, I'm just super thankful I have him, and will always have him to depend on.
So yea, back to 'my-car-got-towed' part, I went there and guess what, there were like 4 other people whose there to "claim" their towed cars too. And the best part is, their cars got towed from SS15 too. Wah, seriously, they went on towing spree luh. When I was there waiting to make my payment, another two more tow-trucks came with more cars. I seriously wonder how much do they earn in a day. Mannn!

But at the end of this, I'm just really thankful I have someone to depend on, and I got back my baby, poor baby got 'car-napped' hah. So glad its over. I really need something to just put my life back on track - enough of all those unluckiness sigh. And I really need some ice cream to cheer me up too :(

Anyway, let me share this video, but I think its already all over facebook, but its so freaky-lish true that it nearly brought tears.

Just, too, relatable....

Hope your day wasn't bad like mine & have a good day!

Haunt me.

2011-04-24T05:16:00.001+08:00

Its 5am in the morning.
And to be honest, I have no idea what the fuck am I doing here and what the fuck am I doing... awake. I just can't seem to sleep, whats best is these thoughts keeps flooding in, makes it even harder for me to close my eyes. Because the moment I do, everything rushes in ... from happy to sad, and the worst part is, I don't know how to stop it.

But seriously, its amazing really, how memories can break someone, how thoughts can make someone wanna run away from everything. Its amazing really, how these pointless thoughts could trigger such deep emotions at 5am in the morning. Its amazing really, how simple actions could make flashback so hard to stop. Its amazing really.

At this point, I then start to question about everything in my life. From what am I doing, to what am I accomplishing. And up till now, what I could think of is just ... zero. Besides always being swayed by emotions, not focusing on my priorities, I did not do anything I'm proud of in this life, nothing I'm proud of accomplishing, nothing I'm proud of myself that I'm doing, nothing...
Despite looking like the girl who could have anything, but in turn, I really am just having nothing. You have no idea how the thought of that breaks me into thousands of pieces sometimes.

I'm done, to be honest I'm done of running away, escaping, trying to cover up, I'm done and tired of all of these.

I just want to feel alive again.

Behind these castle walls.

2011-04-19T22:42:00.001+08:00

But I set fire to the rain,

Watched it pour as I touched your face.

Well, it burned while I cried.

& I heard it screaming out your name, your name...

The time of the night again, where thoughts come flooding in, imaginations running wild, memories replaying themselves. The feeling, is coming back again. Why, I just can't seem to escape. Here I am, being suck into that endless blackhole again, where I question every step I'm taking, every decision I'm taking, doubting my ability, doubting my decisions, doubting that very thought. It really is wearing me out, that feeling of needing to pour everything out to somebody, but there just isn't someone who would understand. Someone who wouldn't judge, someone who would just listen without thinking twice.

Is it me, or is it just me,

I just can't seem to trust anymore,

I just can't seem to open up anymore,

I just can't seem to heal.... anymore?

Oh, let it burn, let it burn...

*edit*
I changed my mind.

Anyway I really need something to divert my mind,

here's what I'm currently in love with ♡

img source: Google

Prada Gaufre' Nappa Leather Tote ♡♡♡

Someone get it for me pretty pretty please?

*blows flying kisses*
*gives more flying kisses*

Be yourself.

2011-04-18T14:04:00.004+08:00

I was, am, still very bored. Hence, photobooth spam! Hehe. So recently, I changed my hair colour :D and I really loved it. Its light brown, with streaks of highlights a bit yellowish, goldish kind. Anyway, pictures ain't that visible, its a lot lot lot lighter in real life. I'll probably take some more pictures soon and show you guys ;)

Anyway, being home is so good. I get fixed meals, I don't have to do any dishes nor laundry, I don't have to worry about my car being dirty, nor having no money. And I constantly have company :')

I am so full of bruises right now, take a nearer look at my picture, at my knee :( reddish spots all over right, Sigh you know why? I over scrubbed myself! -,- dumb I know, but I was just trying to remove those dead skins! Sighyaiyaiyai. Now my knee, my elbow are all bruised! Hahaha :D

K, I just found out my brother is coming back at 2.30pm, I am actually waiting for him, but now I decided not to! So I am going out!

Goodbye, have a good day :D

Hope you didn't get bored of my face yet!

What do you do when your hearts in two places?
You feel great but you're torn inside.
You feel love but you just can't embrace it,
When you found the right one at the wrong time.

A surprise gift :)

2011-04-13T12:04:00.001+08:00

Not like you guys don't know already, but seriously. I didn't expect this to come so soon :) heehee thank you Min Kyu darlinggggg <3 you're just too awesomely sweet to me!

Its a pair of earrings in case you guys are wondering ;) I won't be showing what design it is, but keep a lookout from my coming pictures! Heehee ;)

Have a good day everyone!
Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone

I'll be missing you, will you miss me too?

2011-04-11T01:26:00.000+08:00

The moment you start to care is the moment problems start flooding in. Those concerns, those expectations, lead to nothing but disappointments. I finally let my guard down, after struggling so long and so much with myself, I did it. But what I got in return was just disappointments, I got hurt. Again. This time, by a different person, who've made his way into my heart. But I don't want all these anymore. Its tiring, hurting, confusing, complicating... I've been through too much to be going through them again, those quarrels, misunderstandings, miscommunications, trust me, this time would be harder than the last to talk right into my heart. Compromise, probably I'm not compromising. Probably I'm demanding too much, probably I'm too selfish.

Probably, all of these started with me.
"Relationships are messy and people's feelings get hurt."

You make me wanna die.

2011-04-10T17:15:00.001+08:00

You make me wanna die. I'll never be good enough. You make me wanna die, and everything you love, will burn up in the light. Every time I look inside your eyes, make me wanna die.

I'm letting my guard down again, but its freaking me out so badly, I'm too afraid, too afraid to be hurt, to get disappointed, to commit again. I'm too scarred baby, will you be able to take this? Patience, that's all I want and its all that you've been giving me. I can't demand for more, but at the same time, will I be able to take it? Seriously, you make me wanna die.

"Don't talk, I'm not listening."

Baby please don't go.

2011-04-06T19:06:00.000+08:00

This blog is getting too boring.

Will you sing me a love song?

2011-04-04T16:14:00.000+08:00

It's finally dying off. Finally I can have a breather, finally I can wake up seeing sunshine. It took me so long to find out, although everything was already history so long ago, but I am still, very thankful for knowing all those, at least those made me give up hope. Just like how my friend said, who've seen me through so much, he said 'now that you know, you can finally give up, whole heartedly.' I cannot deny, you'll always be a part of me - a mistake I'll never repeat.

& Finally, I just finished, and passed up 2 assignments. Both due on the same day, another one is coming, gotta start on it soon. Degree's been busy, there's so much of workload, so much that sometimes I just want to give up, its like I don't know if I can go on, pulling myself up every single time I feel like I couldn't do it anymore, just to keep it going. I cannot give up. I cannot afford to.

Anyway, nah, here's a few picture to feast your eyes since my blog has been really wordy and ... boring these days. (It has always been like this, meh.)

Hee, have a good day everyone :')

Infinite, infinity.

2011-04-01T10:53:00.000+08:00

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, I guess its fully relatable now. At the end of the day, I'm just glad I didn't lose myself completely, I managed to control, and pulled myself back before drowning more, at least thats the least I can do for myself.

I think, I'm too indecisive, too easily affected and too easily influenced. But this time, its too different. I'm so confused, with what I'm feeling and what I ought to do. What if, things go wrong again? The pain isn't bearable anymore, it doubled up every single time it happen. I've been selfish, but am I this selfish? To only be thinking about myself, my wants, my needs. Then what about you? When you've been there for me supporting me through every downturn, when you were there as my pillar of support when I have no one, my teddy bear when I really needed a hug, my listening ear when I really pour everything out, although most of the time I don't pour out to you. You've been there, always, or rather, every time. Without fail. So what was I thinking?

Will I be able to go through this alone?

If it kills me, I wouldn't be here, would I?

2011-04-01T03:21:00.001+08:00

Crying as I'm typing this, not that I'm trying to gain sympathy or anything like that. I just really need to write this down to remind myself to be stronger, smarter, better and most importantly, happier... when I haven't been for so long. But seriously, if you think this is the time to pull me down even more, go ahead, I can't be bothered anymore.

I cannot.
Abso-fucking-lutely, cannot. Believe that you are such a jerk. Seriously.
And after all these time, I too, cannot believe how I'm actually still crying over you.

But before that, really, thank you so much. For teaching me so many things, and of course the most important one, not to trust any guys at all. Because they attack when you're at your most vulnerable, when you're so head-over-heels, fuckin' in love with them. When every single action, every single word they say mean the world to you, how they actually know how to manipulate your mind, your thoughts. And how they actually made up every white lies for you to believe, just to gain your trust.

I never knew, until now, that every single 'I care for you' actually means 'I'm sorry for cheating on you'. Just because you felt guilty, hence you PRETENDED that you care. Everything you did was a show, every single action, every word, was carefully planned, carefully covered up by another story.

I cannot believe how everyone kept me in the dark, to protect me, I don't blame them. I cannot believe why did you do that to me, when you claimed that YOU LOVE ME. So, every 'Iloveyou' you said wasn't real, oh I guess now I finally realize (a bit too late isn't it?, wow, how stupid I was).

I cannot believe how I was played by you all these while, I must have been a joke in front of you, every single concern I gave was a joke for you, every single time you look deep into my eyes, you must be thinking 'this girl is such a fool'. You claimed that you love me, you care for me, why didn't you stop it when it all started? Why did you let it continue, why did you keep me in the dark? Probably if you didn't, I wouldn't be so hurt, and I wouldn't be exposing your dirty little secrets here.

Every single time you were doing those, did I came across your mind? Guess I didn't. Because if I did, you wouldn't do that. Or were you blinded by temporary pleasure, or temporary "fame" or "attention" you were getting? You think you so pimpin'? Or did you do that because you think I deserved it, I deserve every FUCKING actions you did behind me?

You think its cool huh, you think you're all matured and grown up huh? Seriously, what you did, isn't what a man would do, isn't what a matured, grown up, responsible man would do. So can you/would you still categorize yourself as one, grown up, matured, responsible man? Ha. I should have sensed something, when you repeated time and time again, that you were cunning, and were good in lies, that you can get whatever you want. So was what you want HER PUSSY? Now that you've got it, are you happy?

Haven't you heard, what goes around comes around? I hope one day you'll get a taste of your own medicine, and I hope by then your desperate cries for help won't be entertained by any.

Lastly, I quote my friend, Joan Dee; 'once a jerk, forever a jerk.'
Right now, I'm just waiting for it to happen, I'm pretty sure it will soon, because both of you are of the same kind.
A leopard won't change its spots.
Have a fucking good life alright ;)
Take a bow now.

You're perfect, to me.

2011-03-30T12:25:00.000+08:00

Fckin' Perfect - Pink

Made a wrong turn

Once or twice

Dug my way out

Blood and fire

Bad decisions

That's alright

Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated, misplaced, missunderstood

Miss "no way it's all good"

It didn't slow me down

Mistaken

Always second guessing

Underestimated

Look, I'm still around...

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean

When you talk

About yourself

You are wrong

Change the voices

In your head

Make them like you

Instead

So complicated

Look how big you'll make it

Filled with so much hatred

Such a tired game

It's enough

I've done all I can think of

Chased down all my demons

See you same

Pretty, pretty please

Don't you ever, ever feel

Like your less than

Fuckin' perfect

Pretty, pretty please

If you ever, ever feel

Like your nothing

You're fuckin' perfect to me

The world stares while I swallow the fear

The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer

So cool in lying and I tried tried

But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere

They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair

Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time

Why do we do that?

Why do I do that?

Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,

Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect

Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel

Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me

You're perfect

Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me

Can I?

2011-03-30T01:54:00.000+08:00

Am I allowed to do it again? That breaking down, that blaming myself, that emotion roller coaster? When I'm too aware myself that it should have an end by now, when I know, I shouldn't be looking back anymore. These self hate, these self blame I'm having, all caused by you, when you're out wandering like a free bird, I'm still trapped in this black hole you sucked me in, I suck myself in, stretching out for a helping hand, calling out, desperate cries but who was there for me?

Secret Garden ♥

280311

2011-03-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

today, i'm allowed to feel emotional,
i'm allowed to let myself sink into the endless hole of sadness, i'm allowed to ponder, i'm allowed to wonder.
because, just because, i miss how things were 2 years ago when everything changed
and trust me, I would give up anything to go back to then.
I will never be the girl I was back then.
i just had to learn things the hard way,
and why even though I'm learning, why was I punished so badly?

whatever it is,
I hope you're happy.

- I have every reason in the world to hate you, but why couldn't I do it?

2011-03-27T17:59:00.000+08:00

"What can you do when your good isn't good enough?"

I'll try anything once.

2011-03-27T10:40:00.001+08:00

Its been countless time I've been stuck in this endless cycle of love, it repeats and repeats, draining my soul, my energy, till now I've really have given up on it, I really don't know what I ought to be doing about it.

I've tried, trust me I've tried.

To not be stupid, to not find ways to escape, yet, it seems like the easiest thing to do.

It makes you forget your worries for a moment,

& that, is really what I needed. Just for a moment, clear my thoughts in my head.

And just be in my own bubble.

I guess right now, what I really need is someone who is perfectly imperfect but perfect for me. Someone who would sweep me off my feet, someone who would make me have butterflies in my tummy whenever I see his face, whenever I stare into his eyes, and whenever I caught him staring at me. I need someone who would fight and be with me, someone who would make me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world, not because I'm pretty but because he loves me. I need someone who can make me have the motivation to wake up every morning, someone who is finally making my reality better than my dreams.

Hard to Concentrate - Red Hot Chili Peppers

hustle, bustle and so much muscle awww

cells about to separate

and i find it hard to concentrate and

temporary this cash and carry

i'm stepping up to indicate

the time has come to deviate and

all i want is for you to be happy and

take this moment to make you my family and

finally you have found something perfect and

finally you have found

death defying this mess i'm buying

it's raining down with love and hate

and i find it hard to motivate and

estuary is blessed but scary your

heart's about to palpitate

and i'm not about to hesitate and

one to treasure the rest of your days here and

give you pleasure in so many ways dear and

finally you have found something perfect and

finally you have found......here we go

do you want me to show up for duty and

serve this woman and honor her beauty and

finally you have found something perfect and

finally you have found......yourself

with me....will you...agree...to take

this man...into your world

and now...we are as one

my lone ranger the heat exchanger

is living in this figure eight

and i'll do my best to recreate and

sweet precision and soft collision awww

hearts about to palpitate

and i find it hard to seperate and

all i want is for you to be happy and

take this woman and make you my family and

finally you have found someone perfect and

finally you have found...

all i want is for you to be happy and

take this woman and make you my family and

finally you have found someone perfect and

finally you have found...yourself

2011-03-23T20:46:00.001+08:00

“He’s the reason I’m messed up. The reason I can’t get myself into another relationship, no matter how hard I try, no matter how bad I want to, I’m scared. I’m scared of hurting someone else. Because I could never love anyone the way I love him.”

I've always questioned myself if it's fear thats holding me back. Up till now, I've never got that answer before. I never knew, was it because I was too afraid that I held myself back, that I pulled my guards up, that I closed my door? Or was it because I have yet found someone worthy enough to let me put myself in again? What am I doing, what was I doing? What happened that made me this way, why can't I get over myself, why can't I just leave things behind? Why am I torturing myself time and time again with these bullshit that is supposed to be over by now? Fear.... It must be fear. It must be because I've been hurt too badly its impossible for me to open up, for me to dive into this endless cycle again. I can't take it, I was never strong enough to bear all these, hence I've always wondered how did I come this far. I am losing myself. I am losing myself so badly, I might not be able to recognize myself in the mirror anymore. I do things, not because they make me happy, not because I am happy, not because I like it, but because I want to escape from other things that is bothering me. That can never solve the problem I know, but what else can I do?

Who else can I run to, when the whole world seems to be turning their back against me?

Pretender.

2011-03-23T11:59:00.000+08:00

So... I think, I've completely lost myself;

I'm sure everyone here, were being let down by a certain someone completely before. When you believed every single word they said to you, only to find them untrue and to be lies all along sure doesn't feel good. Especially when you thought they actually treasure you more than you think that they wouldn't do that to you.

Oh, how wrong I was.

I should have never believed in anything you say, I never knew, you, such a smart guy, would abuse your ability of being so good at words to lie about stuff all the way. I should have believed you when you said, you're cunning. You have everything planned out so nicely, and I was so blinded by them. You made everything seem so pretty perfect from afar, you made me felt like I didn't make a mistake, you made me feel like the most important girl in the world, only to know, I was a fool, being played all along. I am far more embarrassed than I should be now, to be once having something with you. It wasn't my fault, I didn't push you away. I didn't made you do the things you did to me, you had a choice, you betrayed my trust completely. Its not because I wasn't a good girlfriend, you were a bad boyfriend. I was right all along, I predicted those to happen, you didn't believed me. You chose to be ignorant, or maybe you wanted it to happen. Disappointed, too thoroughly disappointed at the things you did. But at the same time, REALLY glad I'm off your control, off your demon hands, out of your control.

Girl, don't be too happy. A leopard never changes his spots, beware and better pull up your guard before its too late. He might just do the same. ;)

Someone Like You

2011-03-21T19:47:00.001+08:00

Someone Like You - Adele

Today I realized, its been months since I took pictures of myself like this. I used to be some narcissistic bitch I have no idea when did I start not liking to take pictures of myself. And since I have some time to spare (while waiting for Min Kyu to come pick me up for dinner) I decided to use my long forgotten Canon to take some narcissistic shots of myself. Heehee and I guess its pretty obvious too, that I'm wearing contacts again. :D I'm not a 'contact lens' person, I love to buy contacts, but always only end up wearing once or twice then it expires. We'll see how long this pair will last, shall make myself wear everyday for a month!

I finally learnt how to do side braidings! And I'm pretty amazed by myself this time because ok so here's the real story, I went over to the mirror, look at my messy fringe then I just started braiding it, I don't even know how did I know how to do, I just did! :D :D :D :D :D super proud of myself actually :D Now I can keep my messy ugly fringe under control ;)

Uni's been fine, been hanging out with myself whenever there's breaktime until I found company, but the truth is, I actually enjoy spending time myself. I can relax, need not entertain people and just do whatever I want to do. But then again, I want to have more friends too :( Should really start with my assignments already, its already piling up :(

K, dinner time. Ta ♥

2011-03-17T09:15:00.000+08:00

I need a break from reality, I need a break from everything.
Everything inside of me is falling apart. I no longer have the strength to keep things going.

I need you, of all times trust me, this would be the time when I need you the most.
I'm breaking down, I can't recognize myself.
Please, give me strength.

Goodbye.

What are friends for?

2011-03-16T01:41:00.001+08:00

I'm thoroughly disappointed.

This realistic society, people only go to you whenever they need you. Its sad to know there's hardly ever true friendship nowadays. Its sad to know how people are so good at being fake for their own benefits. Its even more depressing to find out people doesn't treat you nor treasure you the same way you treasure them.

Friends.
Everyone needs friends, but at the end of the day, it doesn't matter how many friends you have, but how many real ones. I won't say I have many friends, because honestly I don't. But I have a few real ones, or thats how I would like to believe. Unless, they let me down. Which I'm sure they would. Because even the people you thought would never let you down, would. How much hope do I have? I've long lost hope for this superficial society. And superficial friends.

Still, I cannot believe how I broke down for them today. How broken I was, because of the things they did that they thought would never matter to me. How much I wished they didn't actually do that because I would never in the world do that to them. Why? Of all the people that I treasure the most, I would say I treasure each and everyone of you, because we been through hard times. But why did you let me down?

I'm thoroughly disappointed.
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2011-03-15T17:04:00.000+08:00

Please allow me to break down once in a while.

I bet I do.

2011-03-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

"You know the feeling of wanting something so badly but you could only look from afar?"

Its hard, I tell myself everyday. Every single day I wake up and with self-push motivation to survive the entire day. I can no longer recognize that smile, can no longer recognize me looking back at myself in the mirror. Could it be, me wearing a mask too long to have forgotten myself? Could it be that I've been faking a smile, I can no longer feel how does it feels like to be sincerely happy? Its like, I'm already used to it. I'm already used to this, emptiness inside of me. Often or rather always, I have this urge to run away, yet looking carefully, closely, I don't have anywhere to run to. At the end of the day, I'm there, standing alone, while life passes by so quickly. People change, hearts move on, so why am I still here, still all broken, waiting for someone to pick up the pieces and fix them. Because, I should have known by now, besides myself, I cannot count on anyone else.

Love me, please?

Beastly

2011-03-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

The Atlantic was born today, and I'll tell you how
The clouds above opened up and let it out

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean
Making islands where no island should go
Oh no

Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing floodlands to your door
Have been silenced forever more
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no

I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer

I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer

So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on

"Light up, light up, as if you have a choice. Even if you cannot hear my voice, I'll be right beside you dear."

Sometimes, being alone is the best, just like today. I knew I needed it, I went to shop alone, to a movie myself, and got over all my emotions. Probably what my friend said was true, maybe I'm just alone. I needed someone. And being here all alone by myself I do understand why do I needed someone so much, why do I have the need to depend on someone so much. Because after all, no matter how strong I am, I also have my weak moments. I'm trying, so hard, to be independent. Don't give up on me now, I can do this.

On the side note, today is a good day because I sprained my ankle. (okay I was being sarcastic) I can't drive so I'd be missing classes boohoo :( Plus, AH I REALLY HATE DRIVING TO CAMPUS BECAUSE THE PARKING ARE ALWAYS FULL!

And I've been a good girl, and I'm recovering from being sick. :)

Good day people :>

Watch her run. Can you feel it?

2011-03-04T22:04:00.001+08:00

Pyro - Kings of Leon

Single book of matches, gonna burn whose standing in the way
Burning down the mountain, better call on the fire brigade
Bury all the pictures and tell the kids that I’m ok
Even if I’m forgotten you’ll remember me for a day

I, I don’t wanna be your cornerstone, I

All the black inside me is slowly seeping from the bone
Everything I cherished is slowly dying or is gone
Little shaking babies and drunkards seem to all agree
Once the show gets started its bound to be a sight to see

I, I won’t ever be your cornerstone
I, I don’t wanna be holding on
I, I won’t ever be your cornerstone, I
Watch her run, can you feel it? (4x)

I, I won’t ever be your cornerstone
I, I don’t wanna be holding on
I, I won’t ever be your cornerstone
I, I don’t wanna be holding on, I

Time and time again I'm too afraid. Time and time again I try to run away. How long would this last, seriously I wonder? I'm fucking scared now again. For what? You tell me. Really, I have no idea. I want to be able to know, I don't want to be afraid anymore. Don't be nice to me, I'm scared. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve anything like that, anything along that line. Read my mind, read my mind please.

Leave me alone...

Karma

2011-02-23T22:22:00.000+08:00

je t'aime. il est si difficile de regarder vous aimer quelqu'un d'autre.

"You can't break me", she said. "I'm already broken."

This broken heart won't be taking so fast to heal.

First day of University

2011-02-21T16:46:00.000+08:00

First day of Uni today. Orientation was a waste of time. Not much familiar faces around. Didn't make any new friends either.

Met up a good friend for lunch, ended up talking for about 2 hours. I honestly don't know how would I continue life without all these dear friends around me, some loved ones really give awesome advices. Without them, I'm lost. With them, I'm still lost anyway. Hah

Moved into my new room already, quite spacious for one person, still getting used to staying alone. And driving here isn't that bad too. Trying to be more independent now. Shouldn't depend on people. I'm much stronger than what I think. Just gotta believe.

Have a good day everybody.

Good bye.

I think I'm a bitch. I want to destroy you just like how you destroy me. Just holding back. Beware. I might just give you hell.

LOVE just another word I'll never learn to pronounce.

2011-02-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

Hi. I'm sick.

& I stuffed tissue into my nostril to prevent mucus from flowing.

Don't tell me you don't do that! Heehee

Who wants to be my valentine? :D

Just because I'm crying, doesn't mean I'm sad.

2011-02-08T21:56:00.001+08:00

Lost - Coldplay

Just because I'm losing

Doesn't mean I'm lost

Doesn't mean I'll stop

Doesn't mean I would cross

Just because I'm hurting

Doesn't mean I'm hurt

Doesn't mean I didn't get

What I deserved

No better and no worse

I just got lost

Every river that I tried to cross

Every door I ever tried was locked

Ohhh and I'm...

Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

You might be a big fish

In a little pond

Doesn't mean you've won

Cause along may come

A bigger one

And you'll be lost

Every river that you tried to cross

Every gun you ever held went off

Ohhh and I'm...

Just waiting until the firing stopped

Ohhh and I'm...

Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

(piano solo)

Ohhh and I...

Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

Ohhh and I..

Just waiting 'til the shine wears off

(Y) these few days have been good. I don't know if its because I've set myself free, or is it just everything is going good. Oh, one thing that isn't is that I'm sick (again) Ahhhh, bummer :'( Woke up with a very bad flu this morning, even before I'm awake, my mind is wandering around. Y'know that state whereby you're half awake, and half asleep? Yeah.... didn't feel good at all.

So well, 6 more days to go. I don't think I even needed to wait for that 6 more days to feel like everything is just new, or complete again. Or just broken? Hmmmm.

Anyway, I shall recommend you something really good. I'm fucking serious here, Skins UK - is the best series ever. Somehow, those lines they say are so relatable. So, true. I can't explain my major love for skins now. Seriously. Go watch it. I'm giving it a 5/5 stars :D (plus there's pretty and hot-and-to-die-for guys in there mmmm)

K, hope that I'll get better soon. Bigger things in life are waiting!

Good day people, ta!

*edit*

From leloveimage;
I imagine you'll appear out of nowhere. I'll be sitting on a bus full of all my friends. I imagine you will walk towards me and look at me with regret in your eyes. I imagine I'll be surprised in the expected kind of way, look back at you and shake my head because I'm tired. Tired of everything, but mostly tired of being without you. I imagine you'll simply say three sentences: I am sorry. I can't live without you. I love you. I imagine I will desperately hold back my tears, and then I will tell you I've moved on. I imagine you will get off the bus, and I will break down. He will put his strong arms around me, and I'll repeat it over and over again. I've moved on, I 've moved on, I've moved on. It will be a lie, and this will be our goodbye. In fact, I wish it was our goodbye.

- WORD.

This isn't right.

2011-02-08T02:34:00.000+08:00

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Oh god, save me from this mess.
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Bulletproof

2011-02-07T01:25:00.000+08:00

Perhaps what I did was right. For you, for me, for the both of us. For once, I'm not pressurized. I'm breaking free. I'm standing up to what I should be doing all along. Instead of following blindly. Letting go is the right thing to do. I hope you'll be doing fine. Thanks, take care and good bye.

"Moving on isn't something you do just once, its something you do everyday, over and over again."

Piangere = Cry ; in Italian

2011-02-05T01:19:00.001+08:00

Your presence, which I've been yearning for feels so surreal now. The familiar feeling I've been looking for, has changed into something so strange, and unrecognisable. That distant look you gave when we exchange glances, I couldn't even explain how much it actually pierced through my 'so-called' steel heart. I gave my word, I played my cool. Does that work? "I care for you more than you think." Oh, that line repeats itself for more than 5000 times. But what difference does it make? What is going to change the fact that nothing will ever be the same? I yearn. I crave. Every single day, I want to feel that familiar feeling again. But where do I find for it, apart from you? Perfect, that lip, those eyes, that pair of hand, & those shoulders. Everything just the way I remembered them. Except for those heart. Haunt me, come haunt me again. I've had enough. And now, I'm just waiting for the day I finally break. free.

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& trust me, I would choose you over and over again.

2011-02-04T00:33:00.000+08:00

Nate: I haven’t worn this sweater in like, forever. And I just pulled it out today and I found this.

Blair: That’s my pin. I sewed it there so you’d always have my heart on your sleeve.

source : tumblr

Decline

2011-02-03T03:09:00.000+08:00

Nothing about you matters to me. Nothing about you matters to me. Nothing about you matters to me. Nothing about you matters to me. Nothing about you matters to me. I'm going to repeat that at least 5 times a day. I don't know if this is the right thing to do. I'm so swayed. So very and easily swayed. From and away the priorities I should focus on and this future I should be looking forward to.

Everything should have an end by now. I'm way too disgusted by the things I heard and those.... what difference does it make?

Happy Bunny New Year, you people.

May this year be a prosperous one to you and your family.

Love, Evelyn.

I love you, Good bye.

2011-01-28T19:38:00.001+08:00

I don't really wanna go, but deep in my heart I know, this is the kindest thing to do.
I love you, goodbye.
Leaving someone when you love someone is the hardest thing to do.
Oh I don't wanna leave you, it tears me up inside.

And tonight is the night I would like to run away. Tonight is the night I want to shut myself down and away. Tonight is the night I realized. And tonight is the night I just want to cry.

This is wearing me out. All these emotion roller coaster, I can't take it anymore. Its killing, hurting, every inch of my body. I want to scream. But I've been screaming silently in my mind now. And truth is, I still can't get over it. I am selfish, greedy or whatever you call it. I can't stand seeing anybody else having the things I can't have. I gotta say, especially you. Because out of everybody. You are the one that least deserve it. Fuck you, fuck your existence in this world. Fuck me. Fuck my pathetic life. Fuck all of this shit. Fuck all of these thats wearing my determination so thin.

Time and time again I've been questioning myself why, and time and time again I was disappointed by the answer that was shoved to me. Right to my face. No explanation. Nothing. Just it.
And time and time again, I question the actions I've been doing. Am I doing this for myself? To make me happy to satisfy this emptyness inside of me, or was it because I was guilty? Or was it because I yearn for something else so much I find replacement for it. This nor that, these are driving me crazy. I feel like I'm crazy.

So crazy.

We are infinite.

2011-01-28T01:36:00.001+08:00

"After a Break-up : He was a major part of your life; of course you’ll miss him; it’s perfectly normal. It’s like getting a tooth pulled out; after the dentist pulls it, you’re relieved. But how many times do you run your tongue over the spot where it once was ? Probably a hundred times a day. Just because it was hurting you, doesn’t mean you don’t notice it. It leaves a gap, and sometimes you see yourself missing it terribly. It’s going to take a while, but it always takes some time. Should you have kept the tooth? No, because it was causing you pain. Pulling the tooth was the right decision, but it’s still going to hurt."

source: Tumblr

So, what does it take for me to feel again? The longing feeling I used to have, now far forgotten at the back of my mind. Please, let me feel again. Come hurry over now.

Wild world

2011-01-26T22:56:00.001+08:00

- Can i hold your hand?

- No.

- But why?

- Because It’ll hurt when you let go.

Sooo, I realized I haven't been updating for a while now. Life's mundane, like a living hell. Everyday's the same ol' routine repeating itself, wake up at 1pm, tumblr, facebook, twitter, watch skins, here n there, and bam its night time again. I just actually stayed home every single day. Not that its bad. But I think its sorta unhealthy? I need some actions, some activities, some ... things to do.

On the other hand, have you heard of this website? http://leloveimage.blogspot.com ; I think they have the best love stories on earth, happy or sad, each and every word written by someone who've been through em. Sometimes they're so relatable that often bring tears ;(

Ahdfhwighvlsgihwogv, I need something interesting in my life again. Can't wait, for March to come. Because then, everything would be different. Or so I hope? Right now, I just want to keep my thoughts away, I just want to have fun. I'm young. So have fun!

Have a great day people :>

Barriers.

2011-01-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

Just when I thought everything is settling down, and the hurricane is finally over. Something had to come and mess it all up again. This feeling I shouldn't be feeling anymore, comes back again. Its driving me to the urge of giving up everything I'm having now. If one day I chose to walk away, let go and be alone, please do know I have a reason for that. And the reason shall be, me not being able to deal with myself, not being able to pull down those barriers I've built up for myself. And for that I blame no one, only myself.

High high, I'm so high.

2011-01-22T19:19:00.000+08:00

Seriously cannot get enough of this song, I can put it on repeat whole day. So addictive! Especially when theres such hot guys in the MV. AH G-Dragon and TOP <3 <3 <3

Just came back from an outing with the girls from high school, I think we walked the whole City Square like uh 2 rounds or something hahaha talking and catching up. :> Ordered this super huge korean noodles in Kim Gary fit for 2 people, didn't finish it in the end also haha. I'm like so bored of driving now, such a hassle and god knows why JB has like super freaking a lot of cars recently going everywhere also jam. I should get used to this man because I know driving in kl would be a bigger hassle cause its jam 24/7 sighyaiyai~ I want to be drove around, please please please minkyu I know you're reading this HEHEHE

So, I can't wait for Chinese New Year, for $$ to come. :D and then back to school! I miss night life actually, I hate to be facing my screen every single night when I'm in jb. :(

I think I'll go have dinner then get my ass back to my apartment my laptop, charger and everything essential to make this life more colourful is there I have to get it back haha good bye have a great day people :>

Victor's 16th Birthday

2011-01-20T14:21:00.000+08:00

Celebrated brother's 16th birthday at Korean Garden Club Restaurant. With yummy korean food, relaxing ambience and cool breezy air, and the companion of the most loved people in my life - how would life be any better :>

Nawww, less than a month until I go back to Subang and start my uni, how time flies and damn I am rotting at home. Its fun to have my own car I can go anywhere I want but driving is so stressful! I don't like it that I must have 100% attention during driving because sometimes I'm just too lazy hehehe and I hate that now I'm like everyone's driver. -,- I have to run errands and fetch sister to school. Sigh, can these stop?

On the side note, I've been having bad dreams (if you follow my twitter) I dreamt that I killed someone, shot him in the head 3 times hahaha but Min Kyu told me that his grandma told him that dreaming about killing and someone's death means luck is coming. Oh it better be true! :D

Ok lah, I think I shall go and laze around in bed somemore.

Hehe have a good day everybody.

Truth to be told.

2011-01-20T02:11:00.000+08:00

Some things are better left unsaid.

Anyway, hello darling, I think you just lost someone.

Have a good day. :>

You, yes you.

2011-01-17T01:16:00.001+08:00

Maybe, just maybe. I'm getting up and standing on my feet once again. And maybe, just maybe. Nothing will pull me down anymore. But what significance does 'maybe' brings? Maybe, so - ambivalent. Neither to yes, nor no. Am I already back up on my feet? Or am I still battered, on the ground? Either one, I know I'm still surviving. The roads may be rocky, but I'm sure like how everybody says, it'll get better. Like there's always rainbow after the stormy rain. Whatever it is, with helpful hands, and reliable shoulders, I'm pretty sure I can get over it soon.

Good night xx

Beware of your actions.

2011-01-15T20:06:00.001+08:00

Here's to all the guys out there who likes to fuck around -

There is a chemical in a girls’ brain is released only two different times in her life, when she has sex, and when she breast feeds her baby. This chemical emotionally connects her to another person for the rest of her life. Us guys? We only release this chemical when we bond with our children. So if you think sex is a game and go around fucking as many girls as you want, remember that you will mentally mess this girl for the rest of her life. If you’re still friends afterwards then whatever, but she will always have the same feeling toward you because of this chemical. Just a little bit of science.

source: tumblr

I'm sorry.

2011-01-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry.
One phrase that could mean everything, or nothing at all.
I'm sorry.
One phrase that can't undo any pain or hurt thats been caused.
I'm sorry.
One phrase that only one could feel when one truly forgives.
I'm sorry.
One phrase that causes another heartbreak.

I'm sorry..

Truth.

2011-01-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

"Never try to forget something, no matter how much you want to. There’s a reason why your mind wont let go, even if your heart has. Your memories always serve a purpose, whether you know it of not, and you can’t fight that."

Love, is not a maybe thing. Not a maybe thing... I know it when I love somebody.

I think, I've forgotten how does it feels to love someone, happily. Because loving brings so much misery and so much complications in my life. Loving somebody, requires energy, faith and most importantly courage. However, I quote somebody - Sometimes, love isn't enough. Reality sets in. ...Check. Reality always sets in, just like how you wake up from a beautiful dream, hoping that it is real but it is just a dream. And so what if you have all the courage in the world, and you put in all that you have into loving someone, what does it matter when the other doesn't feel the same? It takes two hands to clap. Nobody can keep giving and giving and the other keep taking and taking. Love doesn't work this way ...At one point, one would get too tired of giving and the other would be too greedy and keep wanting more. At the end of the day, things fall apart. And suddenly the person that keeps taking realizes and starts giving, but the person that gave, left. Tragic isn't it? You doesn't know what you have until you lose it. In fact, you do know what you have before you lose it.

You just didn't thought that you would lose it..

Test.

2011-01-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Hello! Testing!
I'm currently blogging from my blackberry. Now, I can blog whenever, wherever, and about whatever! :D no more of forgetting about things and losing inspiration heeheehee :D

Have a good day everyone.
Sent from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Stolen

2011-01-11T01:02:00.002+08:00

The least I could do now is to control my thoughts, after all I think once again you've made it clear to me, not by words but by actions that you don't want it anymore. And being me, such a stubborn girl just doesn't gets it. Ever.

Seriously,

I can't get over of the way you look at me, the sound of your voice calling my name, how you talk to me as if we're still the same - close. But I can't stand, the distance we've never had before - the distant feeling although you're right next to me, the doubts and confusion in my mind when I was looking into your eyes - the distant look you're giving me now that you've never gave me before, those awkward small talks that I just can't seem to continue the conversation further.

And now, it suddenly cleared up to me that it is the way it is. And it will, I guess always be. Enough of those heartaches, enough of late night tears, enough of flashbacks that just repeatedly stab me over and over again in the dark late at night, enough of repeating the sound of your name in my head, enough of imagining how would things be if nothing ended, enough of looking back at how both of us look in pictures together, enough of all those.

I'm tired. I'm thoroughly tired. Nothing will ever work out again. Not even as friends. We've had a barrier too high that its impossible to be broken down now. You, me, have had our hearts guarded so tight that neither of us could enter now. I will not, I won't be in your life anymore. You too, will not be in my life anymore.

We will go separate ways, even though I'm not exactly ready to give you up yet, not exactly ready to stand the pain of losing you again, not exactly ready to shut you up from my life now. But I've got to see whats already in front of me, whats already making my life so much more better in front of me, what's been keeping my lonely mind off thoughts of you in front of me, who's been giving and giving without expecting anything in return right in front of me.

Since you could let me go, I gotta be smart enough to let you go too. If things were meant to be, things would work out. Maybe nows not the time, maybe its not our time at all. Maybe this was a mistake all along. "Love comes when you least expect it" I've never believed in this phrase, but now I do. Because of the most unexpected time, I got to know you, and then fall in love with you, and unknowingly, can't live without you. But all along I knew it is going to happen someday, that you would leave. I just didn't expect you would throw away everything we had, everything we built up together, every single memory, every single promise we've made before. I just never thought that I would lose you this way. And up til now, every single day I've been fighting and forcing the thought in my mind that I've already lost you now. Now and forever, I don't know about forever. But for now, yes - I've already lost you. And in my mind, I've lost you too many times to be counted.

This shall all stop. Right here, right now. Because this is exactly what you want, I will make it happen.

Good bye.

Emotions.

2011-01-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

Cry.

It hurts.

You feel alone.

You feel inadequate and unvalidated.

Cry out your sorrow.

Let your tears cleanse you; don’t hold them back.

Let them flow.

Just as they course down your face and fall onto the ground into nothingness,

...so too will your heartache lighten and your disparity fade.

Skip.

2011-01-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

I'm bored. And hungry. But I'm too lazy to search for some food. That's not the point. I feel like I'm waiting for something. But I have no idea what am I waiting for at this time of the day. I've been in a dark room all day now because my light keeps flickering and its annoying the shit outta me, and I think I'm sorta losing track of time now. I think I'm becoming an owl. I can't sleep early. I've been sleeping at 3am these days, thats a bad habit. I think my skin is too dry. But to be honest, I didn't do anything to make it better. I can't wait for Uni to start. Because then I'll feel like I have an aim a purpose in life than just wasting everyday of my time off now. I want to go shopping. I haven't got my hands on the perfect dress for Chinese New Year, not that it had to be the perfect dress but I haven't got myself a dress for CNY and my sister mother all had theirs already. I'm running out of patience waiting for my car to come. Its taking forever. I'm always confused with my feelings. I don't know when will the next time be, that I'll sway out of my thoughts and keep drowning myself in sorrow, looking back at pictures, at how you used to look at me and cry my heart out. And now, I just think its too unfair, I gotta stop all that, and these. I've been blabbering non stop now. I think its time to go. Have a great day everyone. Bye.

Happiness

2011-01-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

Nothing can ever fall perfectly in place, its either myself, or someone else just had to mess everything up. I can't stop drowning myself in that pain of having no one left by my side. Hahaha pathetic. Yes, come shoot me. I know all of you guys just can't wait to see me fall. Well, I am falling, be fucking glad.

Flashback.

2011-01-04T18:21:00.002+08:00

让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边...

One of the hardest parts of life is deciding whether to walk away or try harder.

2011-01-04T15:53:00.000+08:00

HELP!

2011-01-03T14:18:00.003+08:00

Hai hai hai hai, everybody I need a favour! As you all know, I'm an ex-SAMian, well, unfortunately I threw away all my books already but I have my Graphic Calculator left, since I won't be using it anymore, I'm selling it off, at a cheap price too hehe! Its in a good condition, definitely useable and original don't worry :)

Interested parties, please just drop me a message, in facebook, twitter, formspring or email also can!!!

Price would be rm350, negotiable!

New set is rm450!

Can you pretty ladies/men please help me spread the word around and help me find a buyer?? :-)
Thanks! <3

I'm unbroken.

2011-01-03T02:05:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes its better to be alone."

"What do you mean?"

"Nobody can hurt you."

*
Sometimes or rather most of the time, I wonder if I've chosen the right path. I don't know if I've chosen it correct to be running away from it, than to chase towards it, if its correct to start again when the wounds not healed and if its correct to even start it in the first place.
Sometimes or rather most of the time, I yearn for your companion, your existence but somehow I've came to realize, it has already been my journey, not our journey anymore. So. Why. Am. I. Doing. This. To. Myself.

These has got to stop. 2011, you better be kicking some ass, or I will be kicking your ass.

G'night. 잘자 :)

Happy 2011 ♥ (wtf I wrote 2010 and I didn't realize)

2011-01-01T00:20:00.002+08:00

WELCOME 2011!

May this year be good to all of you, with lots of blessing and love!

Have a great year ahead everyone :)

Happy New Year.

Be happy always ♥

The last day of 2010.

2010-12-31T03:18:00.001+08:00

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

2010 is coming to an end. My new year resolution? This year it would be different from the other years, as for the first time I really have a proper new year resolution thanks to Min Kyu for reminding me. I'd be learning golf! Been wanting to do that since forever but seriously, I have no idea why didn't I. Probably because I've been thinking I don't have time for it. And since now I'll be around for at least 2 months til' uni starts, I guess I finally have time ;)

2010 was bad yet good in a way. It was bad because of the break up. For the first time, I felt so lost losing someone so important in my life. I felt as if I'm directionless. For the first time, I felt the feeling of losing a best friend, someone close to heart. Eu Chuan was my best friend, my lover who knew every bit of me, who could read me like a book. Imagine the feeling I felt when things fell apart, my whole world crumbled down. No way on earth would I ever forget him. I could clearly remember, how he would always say to me - He is someone who wants to be in someone's life and make an impact, leave something before he's gone. Well, all I could say is, he did. He taught me so much in life. He gave me advices precious as diamonds. I would never forget the things he said. Thank you, thank you for being someone in my life. You'll always be that someone that irreplaceable someone in my life.

2010 was good that I started college, I finally experienced college life. I experienced living alone outside, I experienced being independent although most of the time I was just depending on people here and there but I still learnt a thing or two. I also, got to know awesome people this year, and also got to know who're those true friends that would always be there. 2010 would be the year I really grew up and mature from the little girl I once were & 2010 would be the year I learn from my mistakes.

I sincerely hope 2011 would be better, with more better people, and better experiences that would help me grow.

Have a blessed new year everyone.

Good night.

Love, Evelyn.

You can't break a broken heart.

2010-12-30T13:48:00.003+08:00

I'm afraid.

I guess, for this once I'm really afraid. .

I'm afraid of how things wouldn't work out like how it did the last time.

I'm afraid of falling and there's nobody to catch me.

I'm afraid of small little possibilities that I think might happen.

I'm afraid of giving myself again to someone, trusting them not to break me yet they did.

I'm afraid of giving and not getting anything in return.

I'm afraid of trying to fix things and ended up hurting myself.

I'm afraid of falling asleep in the dark knowing there's no hand for me to reach out to when I'm scared.

I'm afraid of commitments, of relationships, of love.

I'm afraid of what the future might bring for me.

I'm afraid I'll always be bothered by the past, not being able to let go and continuously hurting me.

I'm afraid I won't be strong enough to face the world.

I'm afraid I'm not everything I seemed to be.

I'm afraid... I would be your disappointment.

a letter for the beloved

2010-12-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

Letters to the Immortal Beloved - Ludwig van Beethoven

Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

♥

Tried and tired.

2010-12-28T19:32:00.000+08:00

I couldn't bother more. I'm tired. I tried. If you believed that I didn't then too bad for me. But I did. Good bye.

Christmas 2010 #2

2010-12-27T21:58:00.001+08:00

This subang trip was good, though it would be better if more close friends are around, most of them are back in their hometown. Christmas Eve was funny, didn't really party as there's too many people around, went to drink a bit at Republik. I think the DJ in republik is good, the music that night makes me just want to shake my body. :D Got my favourite DKNY be delicious perfume from Min Kyu as my christmas present, really my favourite perfume love it ttm! :D One thing that suck is that from my first day of going up to subang I'm already sick :"( Anyhoo, pictures :D

How was your christmas? I'm excited I'll be getting my car soon :D And, next big event? New year countdown!

Have fun and take care everyone :)

Christmas 2010

2010-12-27T01:23:00.000+08:00

Christmas was good! Despite the fact that we didn't get to really party because there's too many people, and too fucking expensive plus... I'm down with several illness such as flu, cough and headache. Though, celebrating with a few close friends makes it all better ;)

Anyway, I am back! Do you miss me?

Before I update more about my trip, I'm in need of plenty of rest first :) But one disappointment, definitely too little pictures for this year's christmas :<

Anyhow, how was your christmas, everybody?

Time to snuggle under my fluffy blanket and get some beauty sleep, blogging can wait! ;*